Outside our comfort zone

I have decided.

I'm going to move out of my comfort zone.

I've thought about this for an extremely long time, made lots of observations and casual research over the past few months, talked to a few people. But even before I began talking to these people, my mind was more-or-less set on the decision; I just needed some people's opinions to "justify" my decision. Actually, "justify" is not the exact word for it, but at this moment, it's the closest word that I can dig out of my inner thesaurus.

Recently, after many days and weeks of searching, I've managed to find something relevant outside my comfort zone for me to try. It's a bit of a relief, but one does not a maze just by knowing where the exit is; he needs to actually get to where the exit is.

Now is the process of getting to the end of the maze. I know I'm close to it, but there are a few more obstacles to overcome first.

All that's left now is the courage to tell the people who matter within this comfort zone my decision.

Wrong to dream?

Is it wrong to want to be so many things at once? Even if many of them aren't what one is expected to be?

They say, "Follow your dreams."

But seems like this society doesn't really allow that to happen. :/

Last chance at teenhood

Birthdays...

the time to test whether people really love you, I guess. Whether you mean anything to them, or whether you're merely a name or face that passes by as quickly as it comes, or one that forever sits in the shadows away from the light of importance.

& when you've just entered the last stage of teenhood, you're caught in the tussle of still being a kid while shouldering adult-worthy responsibilities. To be more precise, expected to shoulder.

It's scary, it's exciting, it's uncertain--what the future brings, how the next year will be, what relationships will be made, forged stronger or made broken... Because one year is a short period of time, yet many things can happen before we know it.

Time's a funny thing, and so are birthdays. A time of celebration? A time of reflection? A time of looking ahead and making wishes, dreams, goals, aspirations, promises... to yourself, to others, or to God? A time to give thanks? I choose to use it as a time to celebrate, appreciate, and envision my future.

It's my last chance at teenhood. All 365 days / 8760 hours / 525600 minutes / 31536000 seconds of it. Also, a milestone year for me, as I move on to another aspect of life, and hopefully, another level with God.

Thank you, family and friends, for all the birthday wishes on facebook & sms, presents, cards, hugs, and love. & Thank You, Lord, for sustaining me through the past 19 years of my life and showering me with blessings and helping me through my trials and tribulations, never leaving my side even during the stormy times of my life. I love You, and everyone in my life.

I'll make my last stretch of teenhood the best yet.