Growth and Graduation

Graduation is just around the corner~~~

It's a good thing, no? Or is it really a sad thing? 3 years have felt like just 1 month. But in the past 3 years I have changed and grown mentally, psychologically and spiritually. Physically, I've slimmed down by quite a bit since 3 years ago. Yay me!

I have changed my perspective on life, my knowledge has increased--from those that I have acquired from my lecture notes, to those at my workplaces (internship and temp job workplace); from CCA activities and sitting on an Executive Committee to interacting with people I meet physically and online. I have definitely matured and I have been tremendously blessed with many experiences that have molded me into who I am today.

True, not all my bad habits have been broken: I have even acquired some new ones along the way, unfortunately. Nevertheless, I have learnt to take every day of my life as a learning opportunity and a day to appreciate the things in life, be it big or small, significant or insignificant, material or intangible.

My poly life has been thoroughly enriched by family and friends, teachers and acquaintances, haters and strangers; but most of all, God has made the last 3 years in this institution of education worth while. He has strongly impacted my life in times of jubilation and in times of strife. He has placed people, incidents and things in my life that have shaped me into a better person than when I graduated from Secondary School. Without all of these, I would probably not be able to type this out now. Thank You very much from the bottom of my heart.

Friends and family, thank you for being there for me, and for showing me the true meaning of life in each of your special ways. Friends and teachers, thank you for being there for me. You may have interacted with me for just a few days, a few months, a year or even more, but you have nonetheless changed me for the better. You have taught me the true meaning of friendship and learning, and certain people have taught me how to trust. I am deeply grateful for meeting you, and may we continue to keep in touch.

Haters, I forgive you, even though sometimes it is extremely hard to not curse you and hate you back. I thank you for teaching me patience and anger management. I pray that I will be able to stay strong morally, and I hope that we could be able to make up for the hate that runs deep in our relationship.

I have too many things to type in one post, so I'll most likely continue in the next post.

Diamonds

There will always be people who get upset by your actions.
People will disappoint you, and be disappointed by you.
It may be their fault, it may be yours, or it may be everyone's fault, but they'll point their fingers at you.
People may ignore you or forget you, either because you bore them, or because you are unimportant to them.
People, at least one of the 6.1 billion people living on this earth, will hate you to the core.



But that doesn't mean that you have to give up completely.

When the world turns against you, it's not the end of the world. It will be a period of trials and tribulations. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, and surely there's nothing on this earth that will be too hard to the point where it kills you. Well, in the physical sense, there may be, but other than that, I don't think so.

Any period of difficulties would be like the intense and sweltering heat, immense pressure and achingly long periods of time that carbon undergoes. Almost worthless carbon--the kind that is mixed with clay to make pencil leads, the kind that when compact fuels flames. Yes, carbon, under all those extremes, emerges forth as a raw diamond. After which, it is mined out, cut and polished with great care and intricate detail, to become the jewel of all jewels, and all bask in its expensive, glorious and sparkling beauty.

We are all diamonds in the making. I hear of many of my coursemates wanting to quit school when it is the middle of our very last term in Poly. Why the low determination? I'm also going through the same tough times as you, I complain too, but I know that it's just the final league of the marathon that we all have been labouring through for the past close to 3 years.

Why give up now, diamonds in the rough? You're only just a polish and cut away to being a masterpiece.

Every end is a new beginning

Every end is a new beginning;
Every farewell leads to another hello;
Every failure comes before another success.

These are mottos that I have been repeating to myself for the past month, and I aim to keep these for the rest of my life. Because that's pretty much what life is. Life goes on. We may make new friends and lose old ones in the process... We may fail in one aspect, but we will succeed in another. Any end leads to the start of another. Yes, even death leads to another dimension. I know it sounds rather sci-fi, but if Heaven is considered a form of dimension, then I guess those who believe in Heaven will agree with me too.

Oh and this is the 365th day of 2010. I.e. it's the last day of 2010.

Time flies.

It seems like yesterday that I was celebrating New Year's on 31st December 2009/1st January 2010.

But I think 2010 has been an extremely fruitful year for me. So many new experiences even though I didn't even step out of the country at all during the entire year. I organised quite a few sessions for CAC, I organised a dialogue session with the current Interpol Prez for my school--my first "large-scale" event that I organised, and the first event that I emceed for. I also attended my first public reception--ASEAN day 2010 reception in August. It was also the first time I interned and experienced "true" work life in a bank. I understand BGRs better. I understand people better.

I lost my best friend, but in the process, I strengthened my friendships with many current friends whom I wasn't so close to last time, and I made many, many new friends in the process. I underwent many trials and tribulations in my personal life, my social life, my school work, my CCA this year. But I've emerged stronger and wiser. I've emerged more determined to become a better person.

Of course I've still got a long way to go to reach perfection. But we can never achieve perfection in this lifetime.

Spiritually, I'm far behind. I need to buck up in this area. As well as my academics. Sigh.

& I've yet to give some friends Christmas letters! Dx

But nonetheless, I'm grateful and thankful and blessed this year. I've been blessed with wonderful friends and family who mean well even though they may not be able to show it the way I'd like them to. I'm thankful that this year has probably been one of my best and most eventful years of my life so far.

I've made New Year Resolutions for 2011. 1 page long. Not sure if I should post them up here.

Parents looked at the piece of paper and said that it's for a perfect person. And some things seem unattainable. But if you don't set your sights high, then how do you progress a lot? There won't be any motivation to progress higher. Or maybe it's the inner hidden perfectionist that I almost never notice is there working at the New Year Resolutions. Hmm...

But I think ultimately, it can all be summed up in 5 words: Make the most of life.

If I don't get to post again before the clock shows 00:00, Happy New Year. God bless you for 2011. (:

CTs are over...

Well most of them anyway.

Still have to tackle 1 more when school reopens, 6 projects to complete and 2 interviews to prepare for. Also need to think of what to cover for the ED individual oral presentation. Oh, and the CAC Comm Selection Camp to plan and prepare for.

But the last would be a form of destressing, as well as Christmas. The only 3 days where I can relax.

Oh well, work hard now, reap the rewards later. (:

Go, girl.

Only Through Death (part I)

Only through death, when our bodies burn or merge with the ground, we turn into dust.

We'll be blown through the trees, over land; conquering skies, crossing seas and territorial borders; nurturing the plants that use us to grow, coming in hordes to wreck havoc, dancing in pools of light in a dazzling showcase that mesmerises. We'll make trouble out of nothing, and beauty out of the dull; we'll bring life to one place, and harm to another. We'll be nothing, but we'll be everything. We may seem small, but we'll come together and be able to form things on a massive scale. We'll be almost unseen, yet we can do many things to be seen by the masses...

For eternity.

Only when we turn into dust.



Maybe it is only through death, that our influences will be truly felt.

Her rants vol 1.0.01

A lot has happened.

Where do I begin?

I've lost a best friend. I've made even more friends, and grown closer to some current ones. (:

I've been blessed with some wonderful groupmates for my Ethical Dilemmas module. Even though I'm the only girl there, but I'm very glad that we all can cooperate and click very well despite the challenges. Pity I'm not in the same class as them for other modules.

Speaking of which, I'm very glad to have chosen Ethical Dilemmas as an Interdisciplinary Studies module. It is one of the best decisions I've made in terms of academics during the past 3 years (: I've got a wonderful, engaging, knowledgable teacher who spurs you to challenge your boundaries and makes the module less dry than it is. I've many classmates who are mostly fun and intelligent.

& I have a bunch of guy friends whom I hang out with during lectures and over lunch. Really glad to have them, though I'm not all that close to most of them yet.

I've met the current Interpol President. I've emceed for an event for the first time, and this event is perhaps the first seminar that I've helped to organise. I've met some new members of my CCA, and I've grown closer to the current and new members. & I manged to get away from one lesson. :P
That was on Friday (19 Nov 2010). It was truly a long and tiring but thoroughly fun and enjoyable day. (: & one of the new members is enthusiastic to the point of organising a gathering in school this coming Thursday for those who were present for the event :D

I'm starting to love my bunch of CCA juniors! ♥

School work is getting bleagh. But I get inspiration from friends, teachers, Tumblr reblogs/posts and Bible verses to carry on lifting my head up and not let it sink in a pool of self-pity, failure and discouragement. I will not let some insignificant changes in friendships and relationships with people ruin me or pull me down.

I am not insignificant. I am not a failure. I am made for bigger things than this.

I must remember this, and, dear reader, so should you. (: